Thanks to my Grandma’s visit… I have been busy with her and relatively sane post the end of my slightly P cycle! However, I have been miserable in the evenings (at times). I have felt lost and lonely… insecure and scared… feelings I can’t really define! Honestly, the low HCG kinda helped… cause it did not get me too excited… I was more cautious. In one of my insanity spells, it just occurred to me that if there is nothing to lose (as of now) then there is nothing I can lose… sounds stupid I know, but it made me feel a little better.
My AF started middle of last week… that was a relief… that I could move on – specially to the next step (IVF). During AF I noticed a few clots and I couldn’t let go of them (sorry, TMI)… it seemed like they would be a part of this baby in some form or the other! I just calculated the due date and it would have been Feb 7, 2010… I had dared not to calculate it all this while!
Anyways, I went in for b/w over the weekend and I have now officially started my IVF cycle… yay!!! :) I started my BCPs and my IVF schedule has arrived in my inbox! The schedule as of now is:
* 6/13/09 – Start BCP
* 7/2/09 – Start Lupron (20 units)
* 7/6/09 – Stop BCP (may or may not get a period)
* 7/13/09 – First b/w & u/s, Start Follistim (300 IU) and continue with Lupron (10 units), DH starts Doxycycline
* 7/16/09 – Second b/w and u/s (medication could change post 7/16)
* Possible retrieval (ER) 7/23 – 7/25 (Ovidrel to trigger, Doxycycline & Medrol start on the day of retrieval, PIO starts the day after retrieval)
* Possible transfer (ET) 7/26 – 7/30
I have my annual gynaec visit scheduled for 7/21. My (IF) nurse wants me to reschedule it since it will be so close to the IVF (ER/ET)… also I will probably not be my own self (physically) during this phase (for pelvic and bre.ast examination). Now there is a catch here… I am trying to change my OBGYN! The one I go to (as I mentioned before), I dearly love… though I am not very comfy with the hospital he is associated with… so if/when I get pregnant I want to change my OBGYN! I have kinda figured out which OBGYN I would like to go to… but getting an appointment with him is a pain in the rear! I can’t get one prior to 7/13… and it seems that it’s okay to have a pap smear et. al. once you are pregnant. Though, I would just like to get it out of the way and know that everything is okay before I deal with the IVF. I might just schedule an appointment with my old OBGYN!