March 26, 2011

Happy 1st Birthday!!

Sometimes I see myself from above, holding two snugly babies, and I see this happy content Mommy! That is me... no matter how many sleepless nights, and how many bumps in the road. These babies have made reality of what I had always dreamt of, but had eventually almost lost hope of... they have blessed me with motherhood. One year ago, today, our dream became reality. Happy First Birthday my Babies! And yes, Happy Second Blogoversary to us as well!

My first born, RM... You are a focused, strong, mischievous baby of mine. Your determination is unwavering and distractions are very few for you. If you want something, you will not calm down till you obtain it. If we try to distract you with something, momentarily you will observe what we are showing you, but eventually you will focus back on what you had determined to reach/obtain. You can play with one toy for a long time. You love anything that has wheels, from strollers to bassinets to real cars, and even paintings or a fake wheel in the mall play area. You are a very strong boy, you love to use all your might to shake up the (safety) gate or break a cabinet (safety) lock. You know how to get out of a seat (safety) belt. Mommy’s had to tighten your high chair and stroller belts, giving you no room to move at all. You have tried your tricks on your big boy car seat too, but fortunately the car seat makers have probably done a good job and Mommy doesn’t leave the belts loose either. Your favorite game is Peek-a-boo and you hide between Mommy and anything that she is resting against – you will come out of hiding with the cutest little toothy smile and giggles.

You are a great napper and have been taking almost one 3 hour long nap a day. You love food, and will mostly relish all sorts of edible items at any given time – just like your Mommy. You love your milk! Surprisingly, it took you some getting used to the whole milk, but now you love that too.

You love your sister dearly and are very fond of caressing and hugging her.

My second born, RT... You are my agile, smart little drama queen. You are already walking unassisted and cruise through the smallest of places and obstacles. You love to roll over anybody who is lying down, you will crawl over Mommy, and twist and turn and plop down on purpose. I would like to say that you understand everything! If we tell you to get the phone because we have to call your Grandpa, you will crawl/walk to the phone; you will bid bye-bye to your Daddy and blow a flying kiss from a distance when Daddy leaves for work – you know he doesn’t take you with him when he leaves for “office” and are content with it. We step out every afternoon (after our nap and lunch) and you know that very well... you will bring over your jacket so that we can head out. You noticed your Mommy’s straightened hair at 10 months (by touching and feeling repeatedly), and you can exactly identify a new outfit. You will touch your cheeks (with both your hands) when you are surprised by something or throw your hands up in the air when you want to communicate something strongly, or hold your head when something doesn’t happen the way you want it to happen. You can throw a tantrum like no one else, but you are still - my sweet little girl!

Naps have not been your best friend, but you are better at it now and you absolutely love taking long naps in the car! You were never fond of milk, until you started having whole milk! You absolutely love it and will consume it in any shape (plain, pudding, yogurt etc). Foods are a hit or miss many a times, but you absolutely love chicken! You seem to be a picky eater like your Daddy!

You love your brother and are not very pleased when he is not around (especially when he is taking his long naps) and hence always look out for him.

My dear Babies... Daddy and I, wish and pray that both of you have a long healthy life ahead of you. May God Bless You!

March 23, 2011

3 days untill we turn 1

Just 3 days...!

We have a jungle theme... a sneak peak at our theme...
Zoology Birthday Banner and Cake!

March 18, 2011


I have been MIA for almost a month now. There have been several posts which have initiated in my head but never quite made it to the blog! Half of it is because I am trying to relish these moments - before my babies turn 1 year old! And half of it is because I have been super busy with birthday preparation and running errands (big time) since my father and mother are both in town with us to celebrate the birthday!

I have this urge to jot down the rambling of how my life has been affected and changed by motherhood. Looking back a year, I have realized how much I have cherished and enjoyed this change in my life. Motherhood has been a package deal - from IF to a rough pregnancy to a super speedy 1 year. This post is more about the last one year!

I am proud of myself that I provided for my babies for almost 9.5 months! Breastfeeding did not completely go as I would have liked it too... but looking back, I am probably not as disappointed since I initially even doubted my capability to produce milk (due to PCOS)... This chapter of my life makes me the most content, in spite of some of the ups and downs. At the same time, I am glad that I closed this chapter on my own terms instead of having to be forced to do it. The babes are eating "relatively" well and we are on our way to transition them to while milk (more on that later).

I have realized how much I "dislike" shopping! In pre-motherhood terms, I could be called a shopoholic... I reaped the pleasure in even shopping for other people. It actually is a better retail therapy, cause you get to look around and choose stuff even without shelling out $. Now, most of my shopping is online! Mostly AMAZON! All the baby stuff is so cute, but I am so exhausted by looking for stuff which at least kind of coordinates for a baby boy and girl! No, I don't try to completely match outfits, but there has to be some similarity (color shades, casual versus formal etc) I end up buying more than I intend to, because by the end of it I am not sure what is going to work where. Never the less, I love to see those cute little outfits on my babies!

We have this HUGE party planned for the birthday! It's our babies' first birthday! And we get to choose what we want to do! :) I love organizing and planning parties! It is going to be the other way round later on, so I want to get the pleasure of planning this party to the best'est! ;) The balloons have been ordered, favors are ready, 2-tier jungle theme cake has been ordered, all the decoration has been gathered... I just need to get all the nick-knacks together so that I am not running around on the day of the birthday! Daddy dearest has been providing his input, but majority of the stuff has been pulled together by me... and that is just giving the party planner in me a boost of its own! I don't have to deal with any body elses opinions... yes I am a control freak! ;)

That brings me to the control freak aspect! That was me before motherhood... I had to have things planned and organized and executed well! But, with two young kids who have a mind of their own! I have a general plan of the day, but 75% of the plans are fluid. I am not as bothered as I used to be before if things don't happen according to the "plan". I am just happy to see my babies enjoying their day in whatever shape or form it is. It's all about them. HOWEVER, I have a way of doing "things" at home... to keep things easy on us when we have to step out, when we have to feed, or for when we need to have some back up options, and if some one messes with those (things), I seem to be getting quite ticked off with that (poor DH bears the brunt).

Our social life is still almost close to zero! Most of our friends still don't have kids, so we just don't seem to fit in to their social group any more (especially) with our nap and early night time routines (we have tried to stick to a schedule). In my previous life, I would have been so upset and disappointed about not being able to chill out with our group of friends, but today it just doesn't bother me as much. I am trying to attend some play groups and mom-only groups to meet and connect with folks who fall in the same category as us.

Sigh! I still don't have my AF! It is little over two months since I last pumped and I am still waiting. I placed a call with my OB yesterday, and he is supposed to be calling me back some time soon. I guess I am no longer as big a priority (as I was with a high risk twin PG), since he didn't call back today! :P I don't miss my AF, but hormonally that just doesn't seem right... so something needs to be done! There are quite a few BFP's after first IVF PG floating around, but I really don't think I have ovulated at all - so I am pretty confident I can't be one of them!

Last year, today... I finally got the call from my OB finalizing my c-section at 37w1d! Phew - I was so anxious to get the schedule finalized that day! I can't believe it is a year already!